perfect personality..

Everyone at least once in their life has wished for something bigger and better, for change, to experience something different. One of the things that I've always been unhappy with myself about is my personality. I've asked people how my perosnality is and to be 100% truthful. Majority said bohemian, just really laid back, funny, and chill. A few said always hyperactive-hyper and many have said that sometimes that they honestly can't narrow down my personality to just one thing, that I"m mostly free spirited and broad-minded. I take all of those as compliments, but of course, I'mmy own worst critique. I hate complaining and crying. Sure, sometimes things become too much to handle and I just need to cry, but besides that, I'm really not an emotional person. I hate talking about things going wrong, but I'm getting better at opening up since that's one of the most important things to boyfriend. But, even though if I try really hard, I still hate talking about my problems. I always stop halfway through and step back from everything, and realize how many other people there are in the world who have problems that are sooo much worse than mine. Compared to them, my problems don't deserve even the least bit of attention. I've come to realize though, that I am only human and that I have problems along with everyone else. Boyfriend told me that if there's something thats causing me sadness or worry or anything is troubling me, than it's obviously important and to always tell him about it. Sure, there are other people in the world, and he'll listen to them as well, but I'm one of his major concerns as well and wants me to always be happy. He worded that all a lot better than what I just said, but for the sake of the point I'm trying to make.. If I could change my personality, I would love to be able to open up to people a lot more and just act more like a girl. To cry at a wedding, or gossip about boys, or complain about parents.... all those things seem so normal and simple for teenage girls, and yet I don't do any of that. I think being forced to grow up a lot at a young age affected how I turned out, but still, everyone is supposed to stay a kid at heart. Right?