Fantastic

So today marks the last day of finals for this first term of the trimester schedule. I got to exempt out of 2 finals (we only get 1 exemption, and that's if you have an "A" in the class. But I have study hall, so I got out of 2 classes). Anyways, I got to exempt out of 2 finals leaving me to do anything to my heart's content for an extra 2 hours that I would have other wise spent at school yesterday and today. I spent that time getting applications and turning them in. So today we had a Veteran's Day assembly and it went fantastic. On this note, I would like to go ahead and add that I am so thankful for everyone who has served this country. Veterans mostly because the amount of respect and love that they have for their country and wanting to keep things right... I can't even imagine. The sacrifices some have had to make.. seriously, thank you. Anyways, after the assembly, we had to report to our 4th period to take our final. Mine is English 101 and since our teacher was gone for a bit and didn't have time to come up with a final, we had to make a power point over our non fiction book and present it to the class. This went horribly. Everybody did perfect on theirs and they were all really good. And then came me. I was the last person to go because I always let others have the first chance instead of me. It's a habit and sometimes it's not the best, but that's just how I am. I did not go last because I was scared out of my wits, I promise. But none the less, I went last. I got up there and looked out at the class and just saw expressionless youths staring at me. Yes, we are all around the same age level, but maturity level? Waaay different between us all. I fall in the middle. But I just look out and see all these eyes looking at me. I'd be fine if they were looking at the screen behind me, but no. They were looking at me. My leg begins to shake. Bad sign. I knew that in approximately 5 seconds, my hands will begin to shake as well. I stick them into my pockets to try to hide them. I can begin to feel my wrists and fingers vibrate, so I sway from side to side and try to keep moving to make it not noticeable. It's time for me to begin my presentation and my voice begins to shake as well. I notice this after the fourth slide. In my head I force myself to calm down and speak slower and more calm. In reality, I probably sounded like I was talking really slow and probably a little bit.. sounded a little bit like the not smartest person in the world. I notice all of this, and register it into my head. All the other points I had planned out to say were left out and forgotten. I said um.. at least 20 times and I stuttered on last slide and mixed all my points up. I refused to look at my teacher because I knew a face of confusion would be taking place; mimicking the exact same face I was doing mentally. The presentation was over and it was time to sit down. I trip while sitting down. Needless to say, I think it has been proven that I cannot speak in front of people.