Well, bad news is nursing school is taking over my life. Good news, I now have an excellent range of medical terms that will ensure I kick ass at Scrabble next time I play my sister.
Nothing much has changed within the past year.. I graduated with an associates in May, got a new job in June, and started back up with school working for my bachelors degree in nursing in August. At first it was so rough trying to find time for everything and work around my crazy schedule to try to keep everyone a priority and make them happy, but after about a few weeks of that I was starting to have breakdowns literally like every 4 days- nursing will do that to you regardless. To try to make it easier though, I just decided I need to be selfish and as much as I love my friends and family and would do anything for them, I need to focus on me right now. These next two years will honestly determine my life path- that's how critical it is. So I pretty much spend all my time now on dates with my school books (I keep this fact away from Boyfriend; don't want him to get jealous about how much time I spend with my hands all over them) and try to calm my twitchy eye haha.
Everything has pretty much been going really well for the past few months. After finally escaping the hell of retail for 3 years, I finally feel so much more like myself. I say that school is stupid all the time, but I"m smiling and my face is shining the whole time I say it. And for the first time in a long time, I can genuinely say that I love my job. It's all just like magic. This will sound so corny, but I can't help but feel so much more appreciative and humble and content after helping out my patients. Never will you be able to see it so clearly how fast something can go wrong, the tragedy of old age or bad luck, or the miracle that the body is and how beautiful of a machine it is that it gets us through every day. I can't put it into words, but that's why I do what I do.. I'm just drawn to its magic and hope and beauty and it's a terrifyingly wonderful thing. I feel so honored to be able to be a part of it.
Nothing much has changed within the past year.. I graduated with an associates in May, got a new job in June, and started back up with school working for my bachelors degree in nursing in August. At first it was so rough trying to find time for everything and work around my crazy schedule to try to keep everyone a priority and make them happy, but after about a few weeks of that I was starting to have breakdowns literally like every 4 days- nursing will do that to you regardless. To try to make it easier though, I just decided I need to be selfish and as much as I love my friends and family and would do anything for them, I need to focus on me right now. These next two years will honestly determine my life path- that's how critical it is. So I pretty much spend all my time now on dates with my school books (I keep this fact away from Boyfriend; don't want him to get jealous about how much time I spend with my hands all over them) and try to calm my twitchy eye haha.
Everything has pretty much been going really well for the past few months. After finally escaping the hell of retail for 3 years, I finally feel so much more like myself. I say that school is stupid all the time, but I"m smiling and my face is shining the whole time I say it. And for the first time in a long time, I can genuinely say that I love my job. It's all just like magic. This will sound so corny, but I can't help but feel so much more appreciative and humble and content after helping out my patients. Never will you be able to see it so clearly how fast something can go wrong, the tragedy of old age or bad luck, or the miracle that the body is and how beautiful of a machine it is that it gets us through every day. I can't put it into words, but that's why I do what I do.. I'm just drawn to its magic and hope and beauty and it's a terrifyingly wonderful thing. I feel so honored to be able to be a part of it.
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