Durn Siblings

In Psychology, we're dealing with early memories. We had to fill out this paper with events listed on them, and we fill out our earliest memory of it. One of the topics was scariest time or event. My immediate thought was my durn two sisters, Julie and Sarah. I was about 4 years old and was in the living room playing when my sister Sarah ran in there yelling about Julie being eaten by a monster. So we ran back to the girl’s room and there was my other sister, Julie, being drug underneath of the bed. She was clawing the floor in front of her and crying, screaming for us to help her. I just stood there crying because my sister was being eaten by a monster. Sarah being the smart one leaped over to Julie and tried to pull her back towards us. With one mighty jerk, Julie was pulled completely under the bed along with Sarah. With both sisters gone, I stood paralyzed next to the door thinking of how I was going to get them back and also what I was going to tell my parents. After deciding that it would probably just be better to run away than to face my parent's when they found out that I let a monster eat two of their children, both sisters jumped out from under the bed and started laughing at me. Great memory, I know. Most experinces teach you lessons, and when you experience a similar situation you're like oh! I know how to handle this! Remember when... But this memory has taught me absolutly no lesson. So thanks sisters. What a great memory to bury into my head to remember even 13 years after it happend.

my number 1's

I was talking with my brother, or rather quizing him, to see what his favorite things are. After I couldn't think of any more questions, he reversed it and asked me the questions. Caught off guard, I had no answers. After thinking for a while though, I've finally come up with my list.
1. favorite color
-Neon white. Not like paper white, I mean like the glowing, neon, snow white. Regular favorite color though is blue.
2. favorite animal
-Cow
3. best place to travel to
- Ireland or Alaska
4. favorite store
- I'm a girl, I love all stores
5. favorite movie / movie line/ scene
- The Three Amigos! / chip chip chip chip Chip chIp NANNY!!! / where they are trying to find the Invisible Swordsman
6. favorite movie
- The Naked Gun series and Shaun of the Dead
7. favorite type of music
- alternative, modern, glam, grunge, punk, classic- any type of rock
8. ideal job
-anything that involves being able to sleep and travel a lot
9. favorite smell
-old spice or coconut scent
10. Name top 10 bands. Go. Now.
-The Used, Daft Punk, Motion City Soundtrack, Cartel, Poison, Breaking Benjamin, the Beatles, Journey, the Black Keys, 3 Doors Down

useless rambling

Have you ever just sast down and listened to music? I mean doing absolutly nothing, just laying down and losing yourself in music. It is to this day, still one of my most favorite feelings of all time. The first feeling is when your belly is really empty, and you drink a glass of water, you can feel it like trickling down into your belly. That sounds really gross, but it's one of the  best feelings I've ever known. Anyways, back to music. Usually when I'm stressed, I either take a shower, start to talk/ ramble a whole lot, or do the whole do-nothing-just-act-like-a-lazy-bum-and-listen-to-music thing. I never could understand how somebody could write a song. I play guitar, sing, play piano, ukulele, and will try anything musically related. I've written lyrics and I've made up a song, but I can never get them both mixed together. Either the lyrics are off from the sound of the music or the other way around. It makes me feel so useless and then I listen to some amazing band like Zeppelin, or Kiss, or the Beatles, or even unknown bands and it makes me feel even more useless. It completly confuses me on how bands do their job.

zoom zoom zoom

It just occured to me, I'm turning old. I can look back on just last year and already see how much I've grown up. One of the big things that happend was turning 16 in December last year. When I was a kid, I was so ready to become 16 and experience everything that life had to offer. I was planning to have a huge sweet 16 party, go on an exchange trip to Europe, to drive, and to go to Florida for the first time. Since then, things have deffently changed. 4 years ago, I went to Florida for the first time. We had too many other things that happend in December, and my long expected party was forgotten. There weren't enough people that signed up for the exchange trip to Europe, so of course, I couldn't go. I am driving now, but I waited like 3 months before taking the permit test, so instead of being able to drive in the summer, I have to wait until the begining of October. This all just shows how usless goals are to me. Sure, it's great to try to plan out things you would like to do, even plan on doing, but there's always the larger force that changes your plans- life. Life is too quick, too unpredictable, and too stubborn. As Gandalf said, we must decide what to do with the time given to us.

"the road doesn't tell the traveler what lies ahead." -TANZANIA!

Life is always changing, but it's still just one life. Each person has only one life to live, and we have to decide on how we are going to do it. Different choices have different consequences. Blah blah blah. We've all heard these things being said. Whether it's quoted from a song, book, teacher, or even figured out from our own deep, psycological thoughts, we've all heard this. That's the point though. We've heard this, but are we really listening to it? Each day my schedule revolves around school. Wake up for school. Get ready for school. Drive or get on the bus for school. Go to school. Come home from school. Do homework for school. Go to sleep to recharge for the next day of school. You get the point. This is really bad advice, but maybe just take a day off every once in a while. Just go and see the world, go exploring. Don't take anything for granted because honestly, we really don't know how long we're blessed to be here for.

the country.. and a bit of an exaggeration

No matter how many times you say it, how you say it, and when you say it, if you say that your from Utica, you'll get laughed at. I mean sure, we walk around barefoot, it's all farm country, we're 20 minutes away from any type of civilization, and pretty much everyone has milked a cow. But, there are some pretty awesome things about living there/here too. My youngest older brother, Matt, goes to college at U of L and lives right in the heart of the city. During his childhood, he'd always be camping, traveling abroad, sailing, anything and everything outdoors. After living in the city for 2 years though, he said he misses the little things. Everytime that he comes home, he goes outside during the night and just walks around. I guess it's because you can't walk around at night in Louisville because you'll probably end up mugged. This is a great thing! Not the being mugged part, but being able to walk arund at night, and not have to worry about your safety. Welcome to Utica. The only thing you have to watch out for is tractors.

lots of firsts

Last weekend, I went camping with some of my family down at Kentucky Lake. Well, very civilized camping; we got two cabins right next to each other that was a 10 second walk to the water. It was great to wake up every morning to the smell of biscuts and gravy or eggs with bacon and then being able to walk with my dog down the "beach". It was also awesome because I got to experience lots of things for the first time. I got to drive a boat for the first time which also led to me almost sinking a boat for the first time. We had too much weight on the front, and I went head-on into a huge wave and water went all the way to the back of the boat. It was so weird, I could actually feel the boat like sink down some. Oh, that's another first; I've never had the feeling of sinking before. Anyways, I got to ride on a jet ski for the first time ever too which was amazing. I also got to make a complete fool of myself (not the first time) by screaming the whole time I was swinging on the rope that flung you into the lake and I also tripped and slipped on the rocks in the process. It was one of the best trips (no pun intended) that I've ever had.

home

 When you walk into my room, it's full of colors, pictures, furniture that doesn't match, music, and just stuff everywhere. The rest of the walls in the house (except the bedrooms) are painted white. My sister Julie asked me, when she came and visited, why I changed our  room from what it used to be to the way it is now. I told her because this is my home. A place that only works for me, that explains me and how I want to feel. A place where I don't need to worry about things being perfect and matching, working together. It's just a place that I come home to to let go. I don't think I'm ready to leave this home yet, but when I need to move to a new place, I'll make that place a part of me and it will become my new home. For me, the home feeling always will change to wherever the next place you live in is. The most special thing about my house is when you first walk in, there is a corner wall where there are markings all over it documenting the heights of all of us kid's heights while growing up.

lip balm?

During Labor Day weekend I had to help clean the house and set up for a large get together we were having on Sunday for my Dad and sister's birthday. After cleaning the living room and kitchen for 2 hours and moving on to clean my room, I of course got distracted. Out of all of the mountains of stuff scattered all over my floor, I saw the movie The Three Amigos! Very excited to have a distraction from the cleaning ritual, I stuck the movie into my computer and plopped down on the floor. Now, if anybody wants to get out of doing a chore by doing something completely unrelated, you must first learn a lesson of stealth. Speaking from experience, it's a very bad idea to be watching one of your favorite movies that's completely hilarious while trying to hide from your Mum, and be laughing extremely loud. Its a very easy way to give away your hiding spot leading to your Mum finding you and making you go back to doing chores again. The good thing though is that I got halfway through the movie meaning that I got to waste about 45 minutes instead of cleaning. Life is good.

Down With The Sickness (and very sarcastic)

So apparently a sickness is going around the school affecting pretty much everyone. I missed school for the past few days due to this lovely... yeah it was miserable. I don't think I would have been able to survive without the help of the fantastic Lipton's Cup-a-Soup, Herbal tea (ooh! not just normal, but herbal collection haha) or the tea my sister brought back from London. I also found out this past week that I have allergies too. Great timing, I know. It helps out a lot that I live out in Utica with corn and bean fields pretty much all around me too. On a happier note though, I am feeling a tad bit better compared to before. I'm still praying for everyone else who is still sick or just beginning to feel under the weather because the only thing that bites more than being sick is having to do all the make-up work.